“He burned to appease the fierce longing of his heart before which everything else was idle and alien. He cared little that he was in mortal sin, that his life had grown to be a tissue of subterfuge and falsehood. Beside the savage desire within him to realise the enormities which he brooded on nothing was sacred.”
Musing Mind is a subjective record of my trying to figure out, or at least meaningfully engage, with that timeless & perplexing question: “How To Live?” I’m also rather convinced that the best way of doing so is from the inside out.
Hello! My name is Oshan Jarow. After graduating from Elon University in 2015 with a degree in economics and philosophy, I saved up and set off to roam around Asia for a year, primarily India. The motive is nicely captured by Deborah Baker’s description of Allen Ginsberg’s own India trip:
Allen Ginsberg was in thrall to a tired idea: Disillusioned Westerner goes to mystic East in search of…what, exactly? A guru? An unlimited supply of drugs? Young boys? Nirvana? A wife? Or, like every pilgrim, did he simply cherish the belief that beyond the known world there exists a place where ailments are healed, the heart is filled, and demons are vanquished?”
Prior to my trip, I would’ve understood “beyond the known world” geographically. I believed there was some-thing, in some distant, disparate part of the world awaiting my discovery that would provide clarity and purpose. I had to hop on planes & trains and go find a piece of human experience missing from my native cultural environment.
Having recently returned, I see this all a little differently. I no longer think the “known world” so many pilgrims and seekers journey to ‘get beyond’ is best pursued geographically, but introspectively. A journey into consciousness.
As I largely spend my time sifting through the ideas of others, seeking both insight and intuition into the potentialities of consciousness, it feels fitting to give a few quotes I fundamentally jive with:
“In the final analysis, we count for something only because of the essential we embody, and if we do not embody that, life is wasted.”
“We’re here to disappear, therefore let’s be as vivid & generous as we can.”
I’m big on engaging with: reading, writing, meditating, philosophy, neuroscience, yoga, and “playing it cool”, as Alan Watts calls the ultimate effect of wisdom. Maintaining a free & easy vibe. For now, I’d say the purpose of this website, and even what I do, is to contribute towards what E.F. Schumacher calls the “task of our generation”: a metaphysical reconstruction (or deconstruction) for the modern age. To move towards a thoughtful, embodied philosophy of how to live. 1
They 2 say misery loves company, but I think light-hearted, active confusion has a thing for it too. The above purpose may be true to some extent, but my ulterior motive is to form a collective, bound by deep curiosity – a digital salon, of sorts – jiving off each other, enriching our myriad trips of inquisition. Please feel free to get in touch (↓).